Blue blue world...

Can people sense when I'm down and that it would be a great time to do something to hurt me more....? Yes.. the answer to that is yes... unless they just have really rotten timing.
So I spent most of the afternoon and evening in the hospital with my grandfather. He seems to be doing better. Though we still don't know what's wrong with him, his white blood count was 20 on Monday and last night it was 65. No heart attack, which is good. Though there is a nasty infection somewhere and they are also thinking pneumomia ( or however you spell that). So he's gonna be in there for awhile or so it seems to be looking like. Which is better than sending him home when he's not healthy or the alternative.
On my earlier question... I think its just that when I'm down things affect me more... not taking the meds lately also makes a big difference... I think I'm going through some withdrawal too... don't ask why I haven't been taking them... cause I'm really not sure... think I'm just stubborn... I start to feel better and think that I can go without them. Days like today prove me wrong... very very wrong.
So I was supposed to be going to the musical tomorrow night... don't know if I will now. Mary cancelled on me... and I'm not sure I want to go alone... though that's a waste of 15 bucks... but I'll see how I'm feeling tomorrow... maybe it would be a good pick me up.
Anyways... nothing too exciting to say... if I say much more my horrible mood will wear off on all of you. So I'm just gonna go do something to alleviate the big black cloud of despair that seems to have engulfed me.
Later