Saturday Thoughts

"I can picture in my mind a world without war, a world without hate. And I can picture us attacking that world, because they'd never expect it. "

~ I saw that and thought it was quite profound and quite true. Yes. Very true. I wish I knew who said it though, I'm sure I knew at one time but now I don't know. Actually, let me consult my dictionary of quotes. Okay... my book of quotes doesn't have it. But that's okay. Someone really smart obviously said it.

I finished my course selection. I think there are a few I'm going to regret and therefore may change it again but anyways. So I decided on the Military History: From Plato to Nato for the fall. Only downfall of that class - its an 8:30 one. That means that my Monday will go from 8:30 am till 10:00 pm. Yeah, that's going to be one long day. Oh dear... but that's okay! And in the winter I registered in a 3rd classics course, that I may regret. Two 3rd year classics courses. But two of my classes that term are once a week ones. One is on Tuesday mornings and the classics one is another Monday evening one. Luckily that Monday doesn't start till 11:30 and the class is over at 8:30. So I can handle it.

Went to Alex's hockey game this afternoon. It was a good game. Alex played net. And he did sooo well! He only let one in, it went right through his legs. I think he can skate better with the hockey pads on then without them.

After that I went to work, my last Saturday at the newspaper office. Wrote on surviving exams this week, attempted to make it humorous, not sure how sucessful it was though, quite possible it fell flat... (hehehe..."like your girlfriend's chest..." ha! - Sorry.. inside joke).

I'm in a really thoughtful mood, a down kind of thoughtful mood. But its nice from the violent, angry down moods, its more of a ... I'm not exactly sure actually... I'm thinking of sad things... and such...

I saw a commercial earlier about some special the news is doing on the whole child porn thing... I just sat there and sobbed... that's all I can do really...that's the worst thing... there isn't much I can do... and its horrible. Its honestly horrible. I was watching the news a while ago, they said the ages of some of the children were as long as under a year... just infants... its rare for me to swear but I did alot of it after I heard that. And what really ticks me off is that all you hear about are the arrests of the people accessing the sites. Is anyone trying to find these children? Are there people looking for them to save them? Rescue them? My crying for them at home can't do anything and there isn't much I can do to find them, but the people who can, are they trying to? I just want to hear that some of them have been found, that they are being looked after and loved the way babies and children are supposed to be loved. Well at least it got me in a good writing mood... Later All.

“Beyond Innocence"

Innocence lay in the heart of a child.

That's just how it is.

And when the child is betrayed

There is no excuse of "Just because."

Responsibility lay on the victimizer.

He has no rights.It is never the child's fault.

Time after time, hour upon hour,

The innocence is degraded.But this should not be.

That's not how it should go.Innocence should be preserved--

This I know.

Innocence is not knowing

and Not taking unlawful responsibility forActions taken by the wrongful party--

Scars left and wounds made sore.

Innocence is a lack of knowledge,

Unfortunately, also a common trust

That no one would ever hurt you,

Not even out of lust.

So as the victim that we areWe stand.

Knowing that no longer in our lives

Will be the unlawful hands--That took from us our innocence

And left pain and scars

And hours full of regrets.

It was not our fault.Don't you dare blame us.

We’ve done nothing wrongTo have that innocence taken away.

Though we have scars for life,

The pain will be no more
We will never forget what

Is now in the past.

But we will remember

That feelings do not forever last.

Though they took from us

Something we didn't know we had,

It will be restored.

But knowing that innocence

Of the blind leading the blind,

And knowing that people care

And feel much more than kind

Is all we need to go on.

We are not to blame.

So, "Who is?" is the only question that remains.
They may have been controlling

And bigger and stronger.

But we refuse to accept responsibility

For their wrongful actions any longer.

Though innocence lay so unknowingly in the heart of a child,

We Know that your seeming innocence never lasted worthwhile.