Some random stuff to share

Today was a busy day. Its nice to have a busy day every once in awhile. A busy one where I actualy see people, usually if its busy its just at work or returning phone calls or doing housework or whatever. But today was busy. My most-likely-gonna-be roomate for the summer came over to see the place and we figured some stuff out and such. Then Emma from work just showed up to visit. That was a pleasant surprise. I love surprises, especially when they involve someone visiting me. Then my mother came over and we left to run a few billion errands including the return of a book from the university library that I had forgotten about and they were asking for a huge replacement fee for. And then we did more bill stuff. Joy joy. Then I ordered my plethera of vitamins. And bought cards. And allow me to rant for a second on the price of cards. I had to get a father's day card (actually ended up getting two but I'll share on that one in a few) and a birthday card.. so 3 cards. They came to 15 dollars! That's ridiculous! Yuck!
I payed Mom back today. I remain only in debt to one person now. Also discovered why the ATM's own't let me take out more than a 100 dollars at a time.. apparently there is something on my account, making it so that I can't. Which I suppose is a good thing except when you are taking out more than a 100.
I get to call Marie tonight! So excited. I can tell her I took my meds last night. Yeah.. I haven't taken 'em since I moved in here pretty much... and its starting to become noticeable... not only am I feeling pretty gross but I'm noticing my thoughts and such are really violent and very dark and its scarey. Scarey enough to make me take them. But I guess having a pile of vitamins to take at night will remind me to take them.. if I remember the vitamins.
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow.. regarding some screwed up womanly things... not looking forward to it at all. But I guess this is the time to get things fixed if there is something to fix.
So Mom and I took Gram (it was her birthday today) to buy some flowers... she bought petunias... and whenever I hear of petunias I think of the song my grandfather would always sing "I'm a lonely little petunia in an onion patch..." That's the only line I know... he knew it all... kinda upset that I don't know it... actually quite upset. And cause he always sang it... it was hard on Gram today not having him around. Mom and I bought her the perfume she always uses. It was the thing Papa always gave her... we had to go in on it cause it was soooo expensive. It was hard... Gram cried when she opened it.
Then when I was in the card store, I saw a father's day card that said "For you, Papa"... cards dont' usually say that.. so I bought it.. I think I'll put it up at the cemetery in a baggie or something... Father's day is gonna be hard... there's really no one anymore.. I rarely saw Dad on Father's Day... it was always Papa. But its okay.. he in a better place... thoguht that doesn't help the missing.
Its even harder watching Gram deal with it all.. I sat with her for a while tonight and she just held my hand... I kept saying I needed to go but she just wouldn't let go. I'll stay there next summer, just for her. She really really wants me to. And I have to call her more. I never call her. So I must call her on thursday night. I promised her that. And I know she'll be looking forward to it all day. She had me try on her wedding rings today... asked me if I wanted them and such... They're white gold. I don't like gold, and apparently they're mine. She made me promise I'd use them as my own wedding rings... which is fine with me. They are really pretty. She then proceeded to ask me when I was gonna bring a boy home... contiuned hinting that she'd like to see me married before she goes... I hope she plans on living long. Cause its gonna be a while... but that's okay. It'll keep her around longer.
But anyways, I must go put away clean clothes and clean up a bit. Later.