Thanksgiving Dinner from hell

So... went to dinnner at Dad's... pretty much took his threatening me for me to go. So I went. No one spoke to me. I sat there alone, getting Alex's meal ready for him and keeping him happy. My grandmother didn't know who I was. My aunts never even said hi. And my father made me say thank you to his girlfriend for having me over.
I feel horrible bout it all... thank you for liking me... gosh.. if I ever do anything to screw up my relationship with mom's side of the family I'll have no one. Funny... I can see that happening... my screwing up that is... well.. that and the being alone and having no one for the rest of my life. I can see that pretty clearly too.
I'm a quiet person, I don't like alot of attention, and I don't like alot of people milling about me, however I do like people to acknowledge my presence. At church this morning, no one said hi to me... I know this shouldn't bother me but it does... and I hate it.. ruins the day.. quite nicely.
Anyways... gotta go pick up mom... and the fun begins all over!
Happy Thanksgiving all! Hope yours is better than mine!