The drugs don't make me high, they make me neutral. ~Dr. Gregory House.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Yay Spring!

Its absoulutely beautiful out. I just came back from a really nice walk. I'm proud. Been outside walking (and puddle-jumping) for the past three days. My attempt to medicate the depression without the use of drugs. So far its not working, but its only been 3 days. That and perhaps I"ll sleep better with some fresh air.
And I need to get in shape. My mother has lost a ton of weight (well maybe not a ton...) and she's not far away from my weight and I don't want to sound mean, but umm... I can't weigh the same as my mother so that needs to be fixed.
Had a great chat with a classmate yesterday, it was really nice to just talk to someone who had the same fears about school and career issues as I do. And to just talk in general. I don't know what I"m going to do this summer with no one to talk to. Just like casual talking, not serious conversations, just everyday, "what's been going on" kind of talking. But that's when I really appreciate my mother. I called her last night too and we talked for over an hour, not about anything too important but just to tell someone what I've been up to is nice. Typing it on here just doesn't cut it and talking to myself just seems redundant.
Speaking of talking to myself, I've caught myself talking out loud to myself. I carry on conversations with myself (and others - I play out how a conversation should go or how it did go etc) in my head all the time. That doesn't worry me anymore (though it probably should) but now I'm actually talking out loud and then replying. Out loud. Maybe I just miss having my cat to talk to, dear goodness I hope that's just it. I'll let you know after he's been back for awhile.
Anyways, I'm gonna go shower (Its warm enought to sweat on a leisurely walk) and have supper (I made poached salmon with a nice lemon basil white sauce last night, and I have leftovers). I need to work on my philosphy seminar and read for Sociology and then Pauline wants to run a couple errands and then I had plans to watch movies.
My family are coming to visit tomorrow. For the whole day. Sooo... tomorrow's out for anything fun so I might as well do it tonight... and I plan on having a drink or two as well... and I definetly can't do that with my family here. Anyways, off I go!
Happy Spring!

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