So I've realized I have a problem, a slight dilemna, actually its kinda big. But I have an even more complicated problem in that I can't talk to anyone about it. And even though I'm often hesistant to share things with people, I do often need to talk to someone to work through something. Unfortunately because this situation actually involves someone else I can't talk to anyone about it. So I'm going to attempt to work through it here... without anyone knowing what I'm talking about. ;)
I've been thinking about this for a few months now and its only starting to become an issue now. Which is good, cause I didn't think I'd be able to hold off on dealing with it this long. So now the time to deal with it is here and I don't know how...
The biggest problem being, no matter how I deal with it... I'm going to be left in a not-so-great state emotionally. Actually, I'll be left pretty miserably to be completely accurate. And I don't really know if I'm up for that right, but if I wait much longer its just going to be even bigger of a deal and leave me hurt even more.
So what do I do to fix it now? See... its actually not something that should need to be fixed.. that's what makes it worse. But it really is a problem for me. The only real option for fixing it is something I really really really don't want to do... cause once again.. it'll hurt a bit.
Gah.. Okay. Reading that probably left your brains hurting... so yeah... just... think of me? Please?
So yeah.. guess that's my rant... thanks for reading... Night all. Hope your lives aren't as complicated as mine.